Compassion.

Since the beginning of the year I've been trying to find my word of the year. It finally came to me! Compassion.
I feel awful saying this but compassion is something I really lack. I can get pretty wrapped up in myself and it's hard for me to consider anybody else's feelings but my own. It's terrible. So that is my word of the year! On to some pictures.

 My beautiful blue eyed boy.

Pictures

Joe got me a camera for Christmas and I have yet to upload any.. so all these pictures are still just from my phone. 

  My big lipped boy takin' a snooze.

Daddy reading "Goodnight Moon" to Ole. This book is really special to me. I loved it when I was little and my Grandma always said I would say "goodnight moon!" at night. The first time we read it to Ole he loved it so much and got so excited he started shaking. (Which I then I asked his doctor  about because it freaked us out, she said it's just a rush of adrenalin). Him loving it just makes me love it so much more. (I wonder if he'll read it to his kids?)

This picture is just too cute to me. This is Ole eating his cousin Landon's hand. Mind you, Landon is a year old. Ole is huge. He had his 4 month check on Friday and he's in the 90th percentile. Anyway, Ole has to put every thing in to his mouth. the most annoying being, my hair. I want to cut it short now because he's always yanking it and putting it in his mouth. 

Ole and Landon goin' in for a high five. They kept trying to grab each others hand and missing. It was hilarious.

Landon loved Ole. He kept putting his hands really gently on Ole's head and giggling. I would say "oh Landon! That is so nice!" and he would do it again and be so happy. He started wiggling, giggling and clapping. It was really cute. It also freaked my shy boy out. He just wanted to play with Landon's tractor. 

This is one thing that Ole does that reminds me of me. He absolutely loves having his picture taken and having videos of him made and then he likes to watch the video. It makes me laugh and smile. Little ham. My Grandma said I would always say "film me Gramma!" then the video always ends with me saying "now let me watch it." That's my little boo.

My friend Alicia and I had a girl date on Saturday. When I got home Joe had given littles a bath and put him in his jams. Ole was so tired and just let me snuggle on him. I wish he would always let me snuggle him like this!

Here's the Dids standing on his changing table thinking he's pretty cool. I LOVE this outfit that Grandma got for him. He looks so stinking cute I can't stand it. He was being silly this morning getting ready to go see Grandma. He also loves standing and held himself up for the first time this weekend. We were at my Uncle Brandon's and he grabbed on to Landon's exersauser and held himself up. He's pretty buff.

My cousin Josh had his baby girl this past weekend. Her name is Penelope and she was 7lbs. She looked so incredibly tiny to me. And so newborn. To hear her little sleep sounds reminded me of little Ole. I can't believe how fast the time goes by and that I didn't remember those little sounds he used to make already. I can't believe in 8 months he will be a year old and probably walking on his own. They grow up too fast. I want him to be my crazy, snuggle baby forever! Watching him grow so fast has really helped me to be more present with him. He changes so much in just one week. I don't want to miss anything.

4 months is my fave.

Ole could stay 4 months forever and I would not be disappointed. The age he is right now is my absolute favorite so far. I realized there hasn't been many months before this one but he is hilarious. He is the sweetest little thing and just so funny. Last night after we picked him up from Grandma's he was so sleepy. When he gets really sleepy he gets silly. Every time Cuba's ears would perk up he would laugh so hard at her. It was contagious. I couldn't stop laughing because of him laughing and finding her so funny. It made Cuba pretty happy too. She is finally realizing that when Ole is trying to touch her it's ok. It really freaked her out the first couple of weeks. She's starting to get a kick out of how much he loves her. That kid can be in the worst mood but when he sees his doggy he immediately smiles. It's pretty sweet.
He's also developing numerous allergies... which is hard for this breastfeeding mama. He's allergic to dairy and also my beloved coffee. I'm not sure what else there is but I am currently on the Dr. Sear's elimination diet. Right now all I am eating is rice, turkey, pears, zucchini and potatoes. Pretty soon I'll start adding 1 food back every 4 days and hopefully figure the rest of his allergies out. But for now it's rough! I miss cheese! So much.
He also has sensitive skin and we cannot use baby wipes on his bum. So we are making our own wipes. This really grosses out Joe but it doesn't bother me in the least! 
I hope he grows out of all his sensitivities for his sake, but if he doesn't that's ok too. That's just the way God made him!
I forgot my phone at home today so I'm bummed I don't have any pictures to add.
Another thing I'm loving is how he likes to feel mine and Joe's faces. It's like he just loves us.
I never knew that I could love someone so much and care so much about their well being. It's very humbling and makes every day so special. I love my little Olzy boy.

4 month old big kid

My little boy is now 4 months old. I love him more every day. He gets funner every day and becomes more his own little kid every day. I love waking up to see what he'll get in to. 
He wants to eat our food so bad. He loves watching us eat and smiles and laughs while we eat and tries to grab our food. I can't wait to give him solids! 
He throws little temper tantrums. I think he does it because I laugh. He wants to be naked all the time and when I put his clothes on him he yells and fake cries. I laugh and then he does it more. 
I really feel like this boy completed me. I feel like he completed Joe too. I feel like when I found Joe he completed half of me and when Ole was born he completed the other half and now I'm whole. I know things won't always be easy but I truly believe these two have been meant to be my family for eternity. I love them with everything in me. I feel like with those two by my side I can do anything.
Enough mushy, gushy.. on to the pics!

 I just realized I didn't say Ole had his first Christmas! Here we are with Joe's little brother. Uncle Towner. Ole had fun at home.. but he got extremely overwhelmed at Joe's family. He's a shy little dude and it was a lot of people for him. We had to take him in to the other room to calm down and nurse. Poor little dude.

 Here's our little sweets napping in his crib for the second time ever. And only..

 Here is Ole trying to put his feet in his mouth... Joe showed him how to do this and now he constantly wants to. And he can't do it every time. And he's a little perfectionist. So if he can't do it he gets very upset. I say probably 10 times a day " I wish your Dad wouldn't have showed you that!"

 Ole and Uncle Towner on Christmas. Such handsome guys!

 Ole waiting patiently in the waiting room at his doctors. He had started throwing up more and more.. I guess technically it's "spitting up" but it was more then an oz at a time. He wasn't acting like he was in pain but it was freaking me out. We finally figured out that dairy is the culprit. Poor littles.

 My happy boy. This picture gives me butterflies and makes me want to cry because he is just so beautiful. He loves his new toy that Daddy put together. Also, for the record this was originally 40 dollars that I got for $17 on black friday. What a steal. It's awesome to be able to put him in this and get some stuff done! He likes being able to grab Cuba when she walks by. She doesn't like this. It totally freaks her out.

Ole on New Years Eve with my mini sparkling cider. This marked 1 year of me being sober and 1 year cigarette free. I'm pretty proud of myself.

 I love this picture of my beautiful little boy. Joe bought him this towel when I was pregnant and it has sentimental value to me. Also I just can't resist a freshly clean baby bundled in a towel.

 I love dressing this kid. We got this onesie when I was pregnant and have been waiting and waiting for him to be big enough to wear it. Wutang baby! By the way this is 12 month size.. big kid.