Wednesday, August 28, 2013

last night

We had a bit of excitement last night. I had some bloody show. And then at birth class I had some pretty intense contractions. I feel fine today. Just exhausted. I couldn't get comfortable and kept having to get up to use the bathroom. I knew he wasn't going to come last night but I feel like he is definitely close to being here. All in all it was very exciting and I am excited to see what labor is all about!

Here's our Cuba girl saying "I'm not ready to be a big sister!"

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

37 Weeks Today

Feeling very big. Very tired. Very done with being pregnant. Very anxious and excited to meet Olz. Very excited to get my body back. Amazed at the journey me, Joe and Ole have been through the past 9 months. Ready.


Thursday, August 15, 2013

Thoughts on a Rainy Day

Today my coworkers threw me a baby shower luncheon. We all brought a dish to share. And some even brought me presents! The food was delicious. Oh and they decorated my office with blue balloons and streamers. It was really, really nice.
A male coworker of mine attended the shower. He asked me, completely serious, if I am expecting twins. Do not ever say this to a pregnant woman. He then told me that he "totally cannot picture me as a mom." Also completely serious and also something you should not say to a pregnant woman. 
I remember when I was newly pregnant I never thought I would "look" pregnant. I thought I might look fat but not like pregnant. I just couldn't see myself as the big, beautiful pregnant woman. It used to bother me when people would say how "big" they felt when they were pregnant. I have always found pregnant women to be fascinating and beautiful and never did the word "big" fit that image to me. I always  would think how I wished they'd embrace their beauty and pregnant-ness. Now that I am that big pregnant woman I get what they meant. You just feel big. It doesn't feel like your body anymore. I don't like the attention I get for being pregnant. I don't like people staring at my belly, or trying to touch my belly. (Friends, family you are allowed to touch my belly.. I'm talking strangers here.) I don't like being told everyone's labor horror stories. 
I still feel like me but I like me better now then before. I feel like a mom.. or at least like someone about to be a mom. I definitely feel like this is the beginning of my own family. I feel protective of my little cub and of my Joe love. I feel, for the first time in my life, protective of my body. And like my body is a temple, and sacred. I wish I would have always felt that way, but I'm glad that I do now. I feel much more like me then I ever have. And I feel like a woman. A beautiful woman that deserves respect and love. It's all very new but I count my blessings every day now. I feel so lucky. I am so glad that after Joe and I have gotten sober and gotten our shit together that we found that we are more in love and alike then ever and that we really do want a family and life together. We really discovered that we are best friends and in it for the long haul. Even though we weren't trying to get pregnant I am so glad we did. Ole has completed us and cleaned us up and actually made us have a life worth living. He saved us. I really want to get a sign that says "first we had each other, then we had you and now we have everything."
Some pictures from baby shower at work day:
 My desk

Flowers from Kellee

Monday, August 12, 2013


This weekend it was a me weekend. And by that I mean that Joe worked all weekend so I had some gal time on Saturday and me time on Sunday. It was nice! I missed Joe but having the house to myself and blasting my tunes and playing my video games was quite fun! Saturday I took Alicia as my date to Mel's wedding reception. 

 Mel's reception was beautiful! And Mexican themed! It was awesome! I feel bad that I got no pictures of Mel. She looked gorgeous. 
Here's a pic of me my Cuba girl snuggling on Sunday:

Monday, August 5, 2013


This weekend was not an exciting one. I was exhausted. The pregnancy is getting to the point where I'm exhausted all the time. Since Ole has dislocated one of my ribs it's really hard to sleep since every time I move I'm in pain and it wakes me up. Combine that with having him resting right on my bladder, so having to get up a bunch during the night makes for a not so fun night. I've heard this is mother natures way of preparing you for the sleepless nights once you have the baby. Sunday my lovely Joe cleaned the entire house while I laid in bed. He made me all my meals and brought them to me and let me just play video games, watch movies, and nap. It was soooo nice but I felt a bit guilty seeing all the hard work he was doing. Then I would stand up and try to help and feel like I was going to pass out from exhaustion. I did get up for a while and we set up Ole's little nursery area. That was fun. Here are some shots from the weekend.

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